[Kate Collins]

Just back home from a massage. It was ok. She didn’t dig nearly deep enough, which frustrates me to no end. Bit feel like it may have helped up up my lats a bit.

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[Kate Collins]

@lara-tasharofi thank you so much!’ ??? I actually love it so much – like I’m still undecided which one to wear!

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[Kate Collins]

Congratulations on the opening Jade!! what an incredible undertaking during such crazy times. How have you been handling the stress? Or have you experienced any stress?

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[Kate Collins]

KAMARA YOU ARE LOOKING INSANE

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[Kate Collins]

Then after some Theracane manipulation

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[Kate Collins]

So yesterday morning I had a full blown panic attack.. ? regarding my physique. Felt as though I looked like a water buffalo (stress is getting to me) and my right trap and lat were severely caught up. (I’ll attach a picture). Didn’t even want to weight myself as that would cause an even worse downward spiral.
Went for a wall, had a couple of knowledgeable friends talk some sense into me. (Very grateful. ) Came home from my walk. Went AT myself with my theracane- it’s next to near impossible here to get a physio/massage at the moment. And relieved the trap and lat somewhat.
Took pictures again and was somewhat a little pleased compared to what it was looking like the hour or two previous.

Had a great lower day. Everything progressed. Still mind boggling to me.

Anyways. Trying to organise my life for the big move in less than 4 weeks. Just need to stop letting stress get in the way of the BIGGER task at hand.

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[Kate Collins]

DAY 61 – FOCUSSED
I really really feel very dialled in ….i want so badly to prove i can be a good pro
im scared to step backwards…im scared to not fulfil potential…that i may or may not have! and im scared of not reaching the stage i want to step onto
my fuel is not aggressive, my fuel is not sadness, my fuel is fear
until i dont feel a constant tone of underachievement i wont be able to move on.
i very much live a ‘shadow’ life, and i dont feel 100% comfortable with that, so i need to make the biggest mark i can, for myself

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I can tell you one thing Corinne, I did not “settle” for you when I first came to you. I came to you, because your the drummer keeping every single body and thing in rhythm.
It’s people’s stupidity that has formed this idea.
I look up to you in so many ways, as a human, a friend, a coach, a bodybuilder.

I get that fear though. And it haunts me everyday, but as though it drives me somewhat.

Anyways.. just know, so many of us admire you, for you. And what you do.

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[Kate Collins]

Oh my goodness Lara I am so so sorry.. :'(
I really hope that the non invasive treatment is an option for you. Do you know how you hurt it?

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Ahhh forgot to tell, it happened when I reracked the weight in the squat machine, a loud crack and I knew immediately that something wasn’t right ?

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Please tell it was your own weights you were returning and not someone else’s ????

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[Kate Collins]

Thank you so much Clare :’)

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[Kate Collins]

Thank you so much @kamara-graham :’) I’ll more than likely faint if I see you 🙂 x x

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[Kate Collins]

@clare @megansylvester @kamara-graham @michael_thebox I just said I’d pop on here to all thank you again for your advise.
Yesterday- I handed in my notice. I am moving to Rotherham mid September 🙂 I will be starting PT-ing and I will build that up to where it can be a full time viable income. I know I am damn good at what I do.
Over the last year, I’ve become progressively less happy each day I stay here. I took this current job because somebody wanted for me, and told me I was stupid if I didn’t take it. Well, it’s been taking a major toll on my mental health. And as my father put it, I was not designed to be in an office all day.

So.. to say how happy I am now, is the understatement of the century. I’m very excited for the first time in a long time, about my future.

Thank you all again for your advice ?

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[Kate Collins]

Another day. 50 days out.

Good check in. 5mins cardio added to each days cardio. No changes to diet.

Corinne is happy – therefore I am happy.

So…. I am handing in my leave notice to work tomorrow. Guess who’s moving to Rotherham… 😀

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[Kate Collins]

Morning 🙂

Another superb leg day done and dusted again yesterday. Every thing progressed. Perhaps fueled by how angry/passionate/upset I was when I was sent a couple of peoples stories regarding “challenges” and “coaches” who are putting females/clients straight on a 1200 calories diet. *insert 1 million upside down face emojis* I still cannot believe this BS is happening, and from apparent “well renowned coaches..” I was fit to unleash yesterday, and honestly I still am. My rant is up on my Instagram if anyone wants to hear an Irish woman get angry hahaha.

Some good came out of it though as I have taken on a couple of girls just to help guide them in the right direction. And I’ve been as by the university I studied at to do a Nutrition Basics workshop/class/lecture for their powerlifting club, AND for the gym I currently train at. Very excited.

Apart from that- all boxes ticked.
Rest day cardio done this morning.

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[Kate Collins]

Oh my goodness Lara I am so so sorry.. :'(
I really hope that the non invasive treatment is an option for you. Do you know how you hurt it?

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[Kate Collins]

@clare thank you very much.. I really appreciate that :’) And yes, in the best hands possible. All I have to do execute.

My god if I could look anything like you at 3.5 weeks out I would die a happy lady 🙂

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