[Josh Crozier]

So after having recently had a bingeing episode, I want to share my plan of action to try and and retake control and some insight into the thoughts behind it. So currently after my most recent episode which lasted 2 days I’m up about 4.5kg of scale weight, This is something that i still find hard to deal with I understand that there is a lot of water retention and an increase is expected. Over the course of 2 days I would guess I consumed 20,000+ calories, Most of these were consumed in secret or without the knowledge of those around me. This is very common in people like myself and I think it’s down to the fact that if no one see’s me do it that maybe it didn’t happen and I can’t be judged on it. Also because it’s something I don’t want to do, so I don’t want to be seen doing it. For example I would wait for my fiancé to leave because even tho I know she wouldn’t think any less of me and be nothing but supportive, I don’t want her seeing me like that. This episode I feel has been relatively easy to recover from using the strategies I’ve developed, These include trying to be as mentally present during a meal as I can, depending on the severity I won’t watch Anything. I will just listen to music while consciously eating the meal or i won’t watch or listen to anything and just focus on eating the food. I also find having a designated place to eat helps me be consciously in the moment. Even though my diet Dosent change ( Excluding episodes) I will go back to writing a food diary for a week or so, even though it may be the same meals daily I still find this to be helpful. I tend to find that to recover from an episode you have to most past it, by this I mean while yes damage control is something I try to do, I wouldn’t punish myself by restricting calories or pushing up output excessively as this can trigger a further and often worse episode than before. While this is just a brief overview of my latest episode and recovery plan if anyone has any questions I’d be happy to answer them.

[Josh Crozier]

I am gonna also share my own experiences and tips on how I deal with my ED in day to day (and recent binge) I also encourage any questions as about this subject and If I can provide any insight I’d be more than happy too

[Josh Crozier]

Today is pull for me which is a a follows:
• Rope Pullovers ( Activation)
– 2 X 20
• Single arm Pulldown
– 1 X (8-12)
– 1 X (12-15)
• Chest Supported Dumbell Row
– 3 X (12-15)
• Lat low row
– 1 X (8-12)
– 1 X ( 12-15)
• Chest Supported Machine Row
– 2 X (8-12)
• Pullovers ( to finish lengthened)
– 2 X ( failure)
• Cuffed Rear Delt Fly
– 2 X ( Drop sets)
• Single arm Preacher Curl
– 3 X ( 12-15)
• Hammer Curls
– 2 X (12-15)

Everything was good and moved nicely which is unusual for me as I tend to get really bad bicep tendon pain during training them

[Josh Crozier]

Immense josh, I know many people who have overcome this through bodybuilding

Will be following on bud

Thanks Kuba, it’s something I really hope to spread awareness for and show that it’s still possible.

[Josh Crozier]

Hi Josh. This imo is a great move and I shall follow with interest n give any input I can.

I worked for the nhs for 7-8 years in severe ED and have been working with clients privately in n out of sport for the same length so any insight I can give I will.

Also feel free to tag me on anything on here if you want input n I don’t see.

Can I ask if the behaviours were there before your interest in BB.

Have you had any input from any medical professionals so far.

Hi Peter, Yes I’ve always had an ED for Aslong as I can remember, It started with Dissociative eating then developed into a Dissociative binge eating. I also very much appreciate the reply.

[Josh Crozier]

I’m looking forward to following along Josh

When you do binge , are you able to share when that happens and then the steps you take around that to help manage how you feel ? Or is that a difficult thing for you to do ?

Hi Jordan, I will certainly try my best to explain the thoughts, feelings and actions behind it. It is difficult but if it can give someone a better insight or help in anyway that’s what I hope to achieve.

[Josh Crozier]

A little bit about me, I’m 20 and have been training for 2-3 years, ( 1 year seriously ). I’m 5’8 and 123kg, I suffer from a binge eating disorder and Borderline Personality disorder which can make bodybuilding harder for me, I don’t make excuses for this and I believe that just because you suffer from something or that you may have to work around certain aspects of life that it shouldn’t stop you from having massive goals and expecting big things of yourself.