[Patrick White]

Hello everyone so a bit about me

I started bodybuilding SERIOUSLY about last year.By seriously i mean tracking lifts, eating on a meal plan, getting a coach and giving it my all every single day. I have since put on 44 lbs 150lbs-194lbs. Relatively lean. I have been training since 12 so have a lot more knowledge compared to other kids my age but just really got the most progress once proper dieting was introduced and hormonal environment.

Now i’m sure you are wondering, what does he mean by hormonal environment? I am on TRT, 125mg a week atm. Now the reason for this decision was when i was around 14, everyone else had maturated properly into men, while i still had little to no masculine features. Now i know there’s “late bloomers” but i had literally nothing, I was incredibly behind . I felt like shit, Brain fog at only 14, low energy, micro you know what. I initially brought up a few possible conclusions to my mother and was told off by her and my doctors that i was “fine”. I eventually convinced my doctors to get Bloodwork, Testsoterone was only 320 with almost no signs of maturation. Now i first tried enclomiphene and got minimal results with it only boosting my testosterone to 430. I decided TRT would be my best route. Now prior to this i had knowledge learning about PEDs since the age of 12. Weird i know but i found them incredibly interesting. anyways got on TRT 100mg an week and got bloodwork done and my levels were 630. Good natural range. Now i’m sure your wondering how i got bloodwork without my doctors being in on it, at home bloodwork that draws from capillaries on shoulder. Anyways my mother eventually found out and after i explained to her why i made this decision she was more understanding. Now on TRT 125mg increase recently i will get bloodwork soon. Feel great and monitored by a great coach. Amazing coach tbh 😂.

Now could i have developed properly? Maybe. Did i want to wait? No. Everyone around me was turning into a man. I was not. This made me so fucking depressed and felt so almost isolated. I was weak and could not keep up with my peers. I would cry at night because i felt i was not in the proper hormonal state to fulfill my passions with bodybuilding. Since that time i have grown so much mentally, and would have handled it differently than i did at the time. But do i regret taking TRT? No i do not.

CURRENT PHASE: OFFSEASON

I am in the last week of my offseason so food is very high. Higher than it ever has been at 4020 cals 602 carb 240p and 60f. Stronger than ever and lifts are moving with my current split PPLxUL. My main focuses this offseason was bringing up my abs so have been doing 2 sets crunch machine and 2 sets weighted leg raises every other day.

Anyways that’s a little rundown of me and what i’m doing currently. Here are some side by side pics of my progress from last year till now plus some just good pictures lol.

Thank you everyone and am excited to log!